| THE WOMAN WITH THE WILD GROWN HAIR RELAXES AFTER ANOTHER LONG DAY After she drives her younger daughter to school, struggling to get the wheelchair out without running over her foot and the car stalls for the fifth time as she leaves because of the cracked distributor cap; after she meets the new cashier's stare over her food stamps at the Star Market going to buy soda crackers and soup and gingerale for another daughter who is home sick after throwing up her entire dinner in the middle of the night; after she exchanges babysitting for their rent in the main house downstairs with the sweet fat/baby and blonde sister who owns nine Little Ponies in their pink castle and a Pig faced Doll with its very own brass bed; after she lugs out the deep steel pot to catch the rain dripping from the skylight and kills the horde of fungus\gnats in the bathroom with their thin wings splayed against the white walls like Christmas miniatures of squashed angels; after she spends an hour with the child psychologist explaining why she thinks her marriage failed and how it has affected the children's lives and she wonders aloud if she can take much more of this and still be able to write poems; after the dishes, the laundry, the second daughter's throwing up, after trying to scrub the permanent ring out of the clawfoot tub and fixing the cabinet door so it won't scrape the wall when it opens; after all of this, she soaks in bubbled bathwater and thinks of Job's unnamed wife, caught between a righteous husband and his war between God and Satan how that woman must have tried to smother the heavenly fire with her mantle as it destroyed their sheep and servants, and fiercely dug at the stones that killed her ten children when the great wind breathed from the wilderness to topple their home; how she tended Job's sores, washing him gently with cool water, soothing the flame of Satan's tongue, comforting him, and how she stood alone while he debated his faith with God, proved himself again worthy to give this wife another ten children to raise. As she rubs her tight thighs with a worn washcloth, she thinks about the faith of women creating foundations out of their flesh, becoming the anonymous survivors of daily battles, that never seem to win the war. |
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